I’ve been taking the anti-depressants for almost two weeks now and I’m noticing a slight improvement. The doom and gloom is much less gloomy. I was worried about insomnia, but thus far (knock on wood), it’s not the biggest side effect I’m dealing with. In fact, I’ve managed to get myself out of bed early enough that I’ve been on time for work the last 4 work days. Anyone who knows me well knows that’s quite a feat. I’m always at least 10 minutes late and usually 15 to 20. As my Dad says, it’s a good thing I work at an organization that doesn’t really care about that. But I personally prefer being on time, so this has been nice. I get to work a few minutes before my official start time and the computer is powered up by 8:00. I get my emails answered quickly. It’s just nice. And unusual. I could get used to this.
It’s spring break at the university I work at, so it’s been very quiet this week. Staff doesn’t get the whole week-we’re lucky if we get one day-and this just happens to be a lucky year. We’re closed Friday and I’m planning on getting all of my normal Saturday tasks completed on Friday, so I can play on Saturday. I decided to take off Monday and Tuesday too just because. Originally, I’d planned on going to the beach but it turns out that mini-vacations, even short ones, cost money, a commodity I lack. But it should be a fun weekend anyway. For starters, any five day period not spent at the office is already good. But Saturday, I plan on spending some much needed quality time with the one and only Chaucerian Girl (TM). I’m really looking forward to that. Book Club may or may not be held on Saturday also, which means quality time with a truly rocking group of kick-ass classy women. (I love my friends) I’m also going to take advantage of the alone time to do some meditation and yoga. So I’m looking forward to a really good weekend.
So resolution updates-I was supposed to do this on March 11th, but I wasn’t feeling very bloggy. So here are the updates:
Resolution 1: wherein izzybella becomes healthy. I’m doing pretty well. Slow, but that’s okay. I’m now down 11.6 pounds from the New Year. Some weeks I don’t lose very much at all, but generally, I have at least a small loss every week. I’m doing a lot better on the eating right and leaving room for “cheat” moments, otherwise known as real life. For example, last Friday I had the accept no substitutes Chaucerian Girl (TM) and L to the power of two (cause she’s just that much more L-cool than I am) over for Dexter and pizza. It was tasty. The pizza. I’m still on the fence re: Dexter. But Saturday morning, I got right back on plan. Lost one pound for the week. Also so far I’ve lost about 5” from the body measurements. Exercise is still where I’m not doing well. So I’m making a resolution within the resolution that next update I’ll be able to type “yeah! worked out a ton!!!” 🙂
Resolution Two: wherein izzybella becomes financially fit. Hahahahahahahahahahahahaha. Sorry, my sense of humor interfered with the update for a moment. Okay, I’m working on it. Truthfully, I shouldn’t have quit the second job. I probably need to get another second job because right now I’m just keeping afloat-not getting ahead. On the plus side, I still pay every bill on time and it’s been over four years since a creditor has had to call me because I was late or missed a payment. Also, my credit score, which ten years ago was so dismal I barely got a car loan, is now above the national average. So, go me.
Resolution Three: wherein izzybella appreciates her job more. Actually, this is where I’ve made the best strides in the last month. We used to have a ton of those cardboard bankers boxes piled up on top of our file cabinets, giving my office a closed-in feeling. My boss got us three new file cabinets, and we consolidated all those bankers boxes into the files. We also got rid of the white board system for our monthly reports. The end result is that my office feels less cluttered and stressful. That inspired me to clean out old files and get rid of stuff I’d been hanging on to. I’m still in that process, but getting rid of all that clutter makes it easier to concentrate on my assigned tasks. I’m also making a conscious effort to slow down when I’m on the phone with my clients and really listen to them. I’ve been doing this for so long that I forget sometimes how confusing the process is. When I remember back to when I first started, there were so many rules and provisions and exceptions to policy that I thought I’d never understand it. I’m sort of the guru at it now and on many decisions even my supervisor defers to me. So I’ve been trying to place myself back ten years ago when I first started and it’s really helped. I’ve also been remembering how Chaucerian Girl (TM) was so stressed and burned out and felt so helpless at the end. Family and Protective Services is not an easy job-just listening to them-really hearing them out before I start explaining everything has made it much more pleasurable to talk with them. So, progress. Yay!
And that’s where I am.
It’s a lovely day today-rainy, which I happen to like. It’s coming down cats and dogs right now, but I’m inside warm and snug. It’s supposed to rain off and on all day and into tomorrow, but the sun should be out by Thursday, round about the same time I leave for my mini-vacation. The only thing better than a cloudy, stormy, rainy day is the sunshine that peeks out afterwards. It’s gonna be a good week.