I’m one of those people who generally looks forward to Friday the 13th. I seem to have really good days on Friday the 13th. I don’t know if it’s fate or just some underlying stubbornness in me that’s like “screw-you-bad-luck-day-I’m-having-a-good-day-anyway” or what. Today has failed me. Utterly and miserably. It’s only 9:00 a.m. and I’ve already managed to upset a good friend by buying for myself what she went to great effort to procure for me for my upcoming birthday. I know how frustrating that is as the gift-giver because it’s happened to me before. It’s so exasperating and it sucks because you know you are giving someone the perfect gift and then they up and screw it all over. So I’m having massive guilt feelings. Not the way to start a day. I wish I hadn’t told her so enthusastically about my purchase–I could have found a way to return it and we’d all be happier.
And then there are other friend issues (different friend) I’m having to work out and it’s just all…bleh. I want to crawl back into bed and forget today ever happened.
Then I found out that my job is *again* in jeopordy. We have our contract signed through next August and it’s really iffy as to whether the contract will be renewed next year. It almost wasn’t this year. But now, the entity we contract with is conducting a “fact-finding” meeting with my specific department in order to determine whether our department is something they can replicate in-house. So even if our contract is renewed next year, I may not have a place in the organization. It’s all very tenuous and very stressful.
And then, after my trip to AZ and the money it cost, I just got the first of my hospital bills–the parts insurance won’t cover. I have to somehow come up with $600. I could completely empty out my savings account, but that’s a depressing thought. And also depressing that the entire Internet now knows I’m a terrible saver. It’s just I’m still trying to dig out of the financial hole I got into during school, so it’s hard to save while trying to pay other stuff off. Whatever. Money sucks. Or, to be more honest, not having it sucks.
There’s just too much going on right now and I feel really overwhelmed. So I guess the only thing to do is to go back to work and try to do the best job I can.
